Train of Thought
How I feel, made tangible.
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The stars and their silence
Exploring the concept of living without significant memories or community connections, presenting a profound sense of isolation. Continue reading
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Being, in Process
Reflecting on significant life changes over six months. Also, trying to embrace simplicity and contentment, highlighting my newfound happiness with a puppy, and a kindly community. Continue reading
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An Audience for Monsters
Exploreing personal musings on societal issues, questioning popular perspectives while advocating for internal change. Continue reading
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.2024
Reflecting on the anxieties of personal transformation amidst societal distractions. Continue reading
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A Forgetful Man
Reflecting on a sense of internal struggle and emotional detachment, as I grapple with feelings of dissatisfaction and the need for meaningful engagement. Continue reading
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Heaven In Hiding
Life, sometimes, is about finding solace in the mundane moments and seeking connections through shared experiences. Continue reading
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It’s Alright
Thinking out loud on the paradox of feeling purposeless amidst the well-ordered moments in life. Continue reading
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A Potential Optimist
Despite my reality at present, I remain cautiously optimistic and excitable. Continue reading
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The Pathology of Failure
Reflections on love, growth, and acceptance in the face of life’s challenges. Continue reading
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The Promise of Reality
A personal journey to Istanbul, where I encountered a young female, an interpreter who left a lasting impression on me. Continue reading
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A Violin in a Void
Reflecting on the significance of emotional connection and affection in life, drawing from personal experiences and observations. Continue reading
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Fair Light
Yet another reflection on the complexities of life, time, and personal struggles. Continue reading
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Speech-to-Text
Using Google’s Live Transcribe for Android, I ramble about the capabilities of speech-to-text technology and my hope for a non-violent, benevolent artificial general intelligence that could revolutionize labor and help shift priorities. Continue reading
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Time Grains
In the midst of embracing change and embarking on new projects, I reflect on the concept of readiness for the upcoming year. Continue reading
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Archives of Bitterness
Writing about my return home to Bulgaria for the winter after extensive travel, taking note of the familiar yet distant details of my environment. Despite physical exhaustion and feelings of isolation, the eagerness to embark on my next journey persists. I also muse on the meaning of existence, reflecting on a life devoid of romantic… Continue reading
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A Remarkable Nobody
I explore my inner yearning for connection with others, my struggle with physical appearance and health, and a letter sent to my high school biology teacher. Self-acceptance and human connections. Continue reading
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Lonely Cognisance
I reflect on the concept of luck, the inevitability of change, the influence of technology, and my perspective on life and creativity. It touches on the unpredictability of life, the evolving nature of knowledge, and the struggle with traditional rules of expression. Chaos rules! Continue reading
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A Radiant Void
A day at a resort in Albena, Bulgaria, marked by my discomfort due to an ear/throat infection and the overwhelming presence of French elderly tourists and young animators. I reflect on the unusual “animation” service at the resort and its impact on the guests, expressing amusement and discomfort at the scripted social interactions and entertainment… Continue reading
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Digital Ephemera
Reflecting on the impact of social media and my with physiotherapy. I discuss the influence of algorithms on our minds and behaviours, as well as the complexity of human interactions. Continue reading
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Liquid Bridges
I share my experience of watching the Japanese animated film “Suzume” and how it unexpectedly moved me. I also reflect on my evolving interest in Japanese culture, influenced by literature, vloggers, and a deeper understanding of life in Japan beyond popular trends. Continue reading
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Can AI Write?
AI, or Artificial Intelligence, raises questions about the nature of intelligence and its relationship to emotion, excellence, and consciousness. Continue reading
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Slightly Off
The text reflects on personal struggles, self-perception, relationships, and the importance of visual appearance. Continue reading
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Literally
I reflect on the experiences and emotions of a person approaching their 36th birthday. My contemplations touch upon the passage of time, the challenges faced, and the impact of relationships on my life. Continue reading
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Myopic Drift
The content delves into the profound emotions of loss, heartbreak, and the passage of time. It reflects on the struggle to accept change, the yearning for a second chance, and the lingering hope for emotional and intellectual fulfilment. Continue reading
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Winter Melancholy
“A doll dreaming of being a real boy, rejected for being untrue.” Continue reading
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The Reality of Dreams
Introspective musings on unfulfilled desires and accepting ambiguity. Continue reading
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Friendly Impostor
Reflecting on the beauty of August and the changing seasons, expressing a struggle to appreciate nature’s wonders and the challenges of finding meaning. Continue reading
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Insufficient Facsimile
Reflecting on my recent three-week trip to Tutrakan, Bulgaria. Continue reading
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Indefinable Wistfulness
Reflecting on measuring days by meals and the struggle of being a creative. Continue reading
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Immoderate Disquiet
After reaching Alexandra Palace park in London, feeling exhausted and chilly, and reflecting on my disappointing experience with a dating app, I describe my attempts to connect with someone who finally captured my interest. Continue reading
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Blind Contours
Reflecting on a newfound understanding of the difficulty in conveying certain feelings to others. Continue reading
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Paradigm Strain
Encouraging learning from mistakes and loving others. Now go love someone! Continue reading
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The Sweet Far Thing
Reflections on using a dating app and questioning the search for love Continue reading
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The Measure of A Little While
Overthinking, struggling to appreciate the nuances of everyday experiences, and feeling a lack of excitement in life. Continue reading
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Snickers Deep Dish Pizza
A letter I sent to a certain someone in a shaky attempt at restarting a conversation abandoned decades ago. Continue reading
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Alis Propriis Volat
I observe a young woman creating delectable treats with intense passion, weaving her emotions into her culinary creations. Her dedication and artistry fascinate me. Continue reading
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Blue Notes
I delve into the contemplation of meeting one’s younger self and the uncertainty of whether imparting wisdom would make a difference. Continue reading
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Sentimental Boulevard
A reflection on loneliness and the lingering hope of rekindling a lost connection. Continue reading
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Light Without Effulgence
Reflecting on the complexities of life and the struggle to find meaning and contentment. Continue reading
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Misaligned
Solitude and introspection are essential for a conscious and mindful life, fostering wisdom and awareness of the human condition. However, the threat of loneliness lingers. Continue reading
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A Slice of life within Life
I describe my struggle with immobility, the passage of time, and the challenge of finding inspiration to write. Continue reading
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Graceful Degradation
Feelings of inadequacy and failed attempts at reconciliation will continue to haunt me forevermore. Continue reading
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Forever And A Day
The narrative captures the struggle for self-expression and the determination to overcome obstacles in various forms. Continue reading
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Back to Normality?
I share my thoughts on The Expanse, blending fiction with real-world events, questioning humanity’s choices, and advocating for enlightenment and love. Continue reading
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Monotonic Drift
Reflecting on my struggles and experiences, from my admiration for Martin Amis and Christopher Hitchens to my isolation whilst living in London. Continue reading
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untitled entry #1
The short note delves into the introspective thoughts and uncertainties one grapples with before sleep. Continue reading
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Heartfelt Time Crystals
My perception of tears, from seeing them as a sign of weakness to understanding their multifaceted nature. Continue reading
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I Want To Believe
Reflecting on my childhood fascination with space exploration, fuelled by movies and TV shows. Continue reading
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Quintessential 21st Century Loner
I reflects on similarities and differences between myself and a 35-year-old Japanese man with regards to the impact of technology, societal norms, and the future of artificial intelligence on human interaction and loneliness. Continue reading
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